So… This is 2020?

Wow.

What. A. Year…

I don’t know about all of you, but 2020 has left me speechless at every turn. It feels as though I spend my time oscillating between sadness, outrage, and trying to be grateful for what I do have. My heart aches and has been torn apart by personal tragedy and from all the injustice I have seen in the news. I am livid at the fact that their are still so many people who are blinded by their greed or hatred and behave accordingly, even though so many in our country are struggling. Like I said… Speechless.

I know that I haven’t posted for quite a while. Honestly, I wasn’t sure what to write. Even before Covid-19 hit, my year was a climbing, plummeting, swirling, corkscrew of a roller coaster and I was still trying to get my bearings. It makes me chuckle when I look at my drafts folder on this blog too.

Wanting to write on “Accepting Change”, as if I am any good at it. I have always struggled with change, even if I was excited about the changes: Moving in with friends, traveling, going back to school. Every time I would freak out and panic. Crying even though I was happy and excited (in case you didn’t hear it in the text, I just rolled my eyes… at myself). Then in February, I was all ready to write again. Ready to share my plans about visiting Canada and reminiscing about the summer I got to spend up north 9 years ago. I was glowing with the prospect! I sent in my passport for renewal, calculated the driving hours, planned all the places I wanted to visit. I was positive that everything would blow over in a couple of months and I could still have the summer vacation that I wanted. Well, the US government still has my passport and I am sure you can guess the rest with regards to how my summer actually went.

Alas, I am still blessed. I have a job, a home, food, a car, and family/friends who care about and love me. I have still gotten to do some great things. I got to go to Texas for the first time and went to a beach on the gulf. I have taken so many local mountain drives and learned about so many hidden gems here in Colorado. Virus or not, I have gone on adventures, floated on lakes, and basked in the beauty of nature. I have made the most of my summer, chosen to roll with the punches and continued count my blessings.

So my question to you is:

2020 – What will you do with it?